Me in my Family

Hmmp…I am here again. Many people think that I am so happy go lucky lass since I keep laughing had a joyous laughter but they don’t know that inside of joyous laughter is a thousand of pain that I tried to hide.
Well I don’t know where to start this, all I know at this moment I do nothing but to create this Blog because mah baby influenced me.

Let us start about Me as a daughter and a sister.
As a daughter I am so spoiled brat I do really get what I want. I don’t like having conversation especially to my family because I get easily to cry. Sometimes I always asked my self am I a good daughter to them? That is the question that I’d really ask to my mom, dad and to my brother. I don’t know if I been good to them huhuhu…well they can’t blame me also. One time my mom asked to talk to me it was 4:00 am in the morning when she went to my room and talk to me. I was so shocked when she did that coz we never had a heart to heart talk like it was..she asked me of something, and the only words she want to hear from me is the YES or NO. When I answered that question my mom’s tear started to fell and so do I. My answered was changed everything about my life, started those days my mom and family changed. I saw my parents will to win my heart and love me. I know they Love me maybe I was just blind to see it because of my hatred for them. Since then, I totally saw the changes of treatment towards me. They let me do what I want in life I never heard mom yell at me nor getting mad at me. It wasn’t easy to feel hatred for them. Since when I was young and it was just the moment when I told them about something could change my whole life. Now were good my mom today is my best friend. Before I don’t really like her because she treated me like not her own daughter she kept me hurt and I cant say anything because they were get mad at me like I don’t have voice in the family. She loves my bro more than me, that is why I grew up that I’m not close to him coz I put a gap towards him. But I love him and no matter what happen he will always be my brother till the end of time and they will always be my family. I repent all the bad things that I did to them and now I realized having a family is a great chance for us. Family will always be there when no one care.